adoption makes a difference

This morning as David (3 1/2) sat down for breakfast, he made the following statement:

"Do you know what Mommy? I want to be just. Like. Daddy."

At first I almost missed the significance of this statement. David was just speaking out of his little heart, but his words were jam packed with rich doctrinal truths and promises regarding adoption.

Once I slowed down my morning rush of breakfast, drinks and tidying up, I allowed my thoughts to linger around his little sentence. What an important sentence: "I want to be just. Like. Daddy."

First off, had God not intervened in miraculous ways, David could not make such a statement. He would not even have someone in his life to make that statement about! Matt was literally the first father in his life and he didn't enter into his life until he was 14 months old. Since then, although he was not yet adopted, he was loved and cared for like our own son and he saw Matt as his only Daddy. What a precious gift! On December 15th, Matt was declared as David's father forever. One day, our hope is that David will put his hope and trust in Jesus, and call God his Father. With tears in my eyes, I am made aware again, that adoption makes a difference! My heart goes out to the estimated 210 million orphans in this world, that cannot make that simple statement because they do not have a father.

Secondly, David's statement reminded me that as a Christian, this should be what my life is about. I should want to be like my Daddy. Sanctification is all about becoming more and more like Jesus. By His grace and day by day, my life can make small and steady steps in that direction so that others might see Christ in me, the hope of glory.

And finally and most importantly, I think David made that statement because he knows his Daddy loves him and because he loves his Daddy. That's why he wants to be like him. None of us would make that statement about someone who is unkind or whose life is not winsome and worth imitating. There would be no point.

Our Father in heaven loves us immensely. It was His love that led him to make a way for us to be saved. It cost Him his only beloved Son.

"but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

Romans 5:8

God's love changes us. Once received, it takes root and begins to give us new desires, new hopes, new dreams.

And for David, and perhaps in our case too, for the first time in our life, we can say:

"I want to be just. Like. Daddy."

professor horner

I'm scared.

I'm pretty sure I will fail.

I'm aware that this means I will have to NOT do other things.

I'm scared. Oh, I said that...

But I'm going to try.

Here's an aggressive Bible reading plan that I heard about from Matt, who read about it on WorshipMatters.com.

Now for the ol' link:

http://pastorbrett.wordpress.com/2009/08/25/professor-horners-bible-reading-plan/

Gotta sign off and read 10 chapters!

i've flipped

After making some switcheroos with a few gifts, I managed to scrounge up enough dough to get an UltraHD Flip camcorder. I have to say, it's pretty darn cool.

Things I like:

1- It's super light.

2- It's super small - fits right in my pocket.

3- It's super easy to work. I recorded without even looking at the directions.

4- It's super fun.

5- It's super fast and easy to upload.

6- It gives me the illusion that I am a young Spielberg.

Here's my very first video, starring the "always emotionally raw" talent of Matt Smith.

unshaken...a book worth reading

I just finished this book and was really stirred by the author's personal account of the earthquake in Haiti on January 12, 2010.

Dan Woolley was actually trapped underground for nearly three days, in the pitch dark, under Haiti's collapsed Hotel Montana.

This book is different in that Dan shares with us two stories at the same time. One of course is all about the struggle being trapped underground, wondering if he'd ever make it out alive. The other is about the early part of his marriage and the intense struggles his wife Christy suffered through her years of depression. Although both stories are very different, both situations required a rescue.

Great, fast-pace read, with an important message for the reader.

Here's a video teaser about the book.

adoption day.....holla!

So after 2 years and 7 months, the Lord added two children into our family...permanently. Or, as David puts it, "fowevah and evah".

Welcome David Josiah and Jayda Hope into the Smith family!

I have learned so much these past years through the process of foster care and adoption. I've learned about compassion and mercy. I've experienced the ongoing unknown and possibility of loss. I've learned (and am still learning) how God is truly the only one we can totally trust in and He is worthy of our trust. I've been the recipient of so much care and love by so many in our church family. I've seen my self-righteousness rear its ugly head and I've seen how God has amazingly put a love and care in my heart for the birthmother. It has been a full two and half years! This journey was so different than that of our international adoptions.

Just the night before, I was remembering the first moment I met D. He was with two social workers in a conference room, dressed in overalls, quietly standing there, seeming afraid. He was just 14 months old and I'm sure confused as to where he was and why. I knelt down in front of him and said, "Hi buddy! You're our number one!" He just smiled, shyly. When we decided to become a foster family, I imagined having lots of children come and go. I imagined a wall in our basement filled with pictures of children we would have the privilege of caring for until they went back home to their birthparents. I never anticipated adopting our first foster children. D was our number one, but I imagined numbers 3 and 4 and 5 and 6 and 7...child after child coming and going.

Wendy Gill wrote the following in a card to us:

Who would have imagined stepping out in faith and obedience to God would end like this!

I never imagined it, that's for sure! God's goodness and blessing to our family has really overwhelmed me.

The official adoption ceremony took place on Wednesday, December 15th. Friends and family gathered to celebrate the big day with us. Enjoy the pictures below:

Judge Whitfill really makes it special for the children. Underneath his desk is a box full of stuffed animals and each child gets to choose one. David chose Pluto and Jayda chose a stuffed bear.

Judge Whitfill holding the children after signing the final adoption petition.

Amanda and her children...all sporting hand-knit hats. How cool!

Family and friends on the other side of the court room. What a great crowd!

Judge Whitfill, our family and the proud grandparents.

“The joyful news of the gospel is that God the Father brings us to share in the loving communion that he forever enjoys with his eternal and natural Son through the work of his eternal and natural Son in our place and in our stead. Through adoption God graciously brings us to participate in the reciprocal love that ever flows between the Father and his Son. Not only is this the very heart of adoption; it is also the very heart of the gospel.”

- Dan Cruver

this is why i love new york

Number one...and in no specific order: Rickshaw Dumplings. It's a neat little eatery that serves up fresh steamed dumplings, delicious soups and chocolate dumplings for dessert.

Number two: Washington Square in Greenwich Village is just a cool place. It was pretty empty when we walked through, except for the small army of squirrels that were chasing us. Yes, they were chasing us.

Number three: The Empire State Building at nighttime at Christmastime specifically. Just beautiful.

Number Four: Bryant Park at Christmastime in the evening. I love this park. It's become one of my must sees anytime I visit the city. There are great little shops they set up during the winter holiday time and they are so unique.

Number Five: The famous tree at Rockefeller Center. I mean, can you go to NYC around Christmastime and not see this?

Number Six: Seeing numbers one through five with a good friend! Plus, Times Square is exhilarating each and every time I walk through it. Don't we look silly in our hats?

"God painted your face red so that you could be my daughter."

From that first sentence, my heart melted and I sat sobbing and reading through this article written by Christina Dubell.

Adoption is a beautiful picture of the gospel. I never tire of hearing Dan's story and how it all began with a sermon one Sunday at Perry Hall Middle School.

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